My mum.
Who died on New Years eve from a short but intense illness with cancer.
Just 7 weeks after diagnosis (we thought we had 4-5 months).
Much more sudden than we, or the medical profession thought.
She died peacefully in her sleep – a relief from the pain and suffering caused by a rare and aggressive cancer.

I shall miss our phone calls, our walks on the beach and paddles in the sea – in all weathers, either bare footed or in wellies.

I’ve planted tulips (in tears) that I knew you would never see.  This year I did grow chrysanthemums that you loved, you did see me get the gardening bug, you saw your grandchild grow to be a teenager.

I’ve lost one of my dedicated blog readers too.

When I wrote these pages I often had you in mind. 
I’m writing this in advance, before I travel down to the West Midlands to make all the necessary arrangements that are required.

I’ve recorded lots of Elvis, Buddy Holly and more rock ‘n’ roll to give you a good send off. 

Miss you loads xxx

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  1. Oh, I am so sorry Helen. Big Hugs! I am glad you had some time with your mum even though it meant a lot of travelling back and forth.
    Let the tears flow when they come and don't fret what others think.
    Much love to you and your family,
    Sandy

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  2. Helen may the music you listen to as you travel, and the memories of so much goodness in your life with your Mother be the balm to wrap you peacefully as you tend to difficult tasks. May you always have the bright light of your Mother's shining self as a picture that brings comfort to you. Condolences as these next pieces of the journey move forward.
    I hold you and your family in the light….Kristin

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  3. So sorry.I also lost my mother in November so know a little of the loss you are feeling.The best advice I have received is to be gentle to yourself and rest when you feel overwhelmed.Take care

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  4. I'm very sorry to hear of your mum's passing Helen, I understand where you are at the moment, I too lost my mum to cancer last year. They leave a huge hole in our hearts, but never truly leave us, and although she can't read your blog anymore she will know everything you're doing and look over and guide you always. Cherish the memories, grieve as you need, and give your heart time to heal x

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